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| the price you paid |
| 02.27.04 (11:44 am) [edit] |
its been a while. this class is so boring. i'm so confused now.
i mean, i'm not single anymore. i am josue's girlfriend. and it feels funny. maybe we should have just been together like we were before. it just feels weird.
ok we just had a fire drill. and ive come to realize this week how much i miss brandon. how much i wish josue was brandon. even though he made me miserable. and i know that if i was back with him i'd still be miserable.
but maybe i want to be miserable.
you and me were always funny...in a [i]car crash[/i] sort of way.
i just want to be happy. there are other people i know. that i like. i like the way the hair falls in their eyes. and their hands.
oh...and dmitri was flattering me last night. "I'm so glad you dropped your stuff at region, otherwise we wouldn't be having this conversation.":oops:
every single fucking day is when i want to find someone but i dont think thats going to happen because i'm only fifteen. but i want it to.
i miss him so much.
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| losing streak |
| 02.19.04 (11:17 am) [edit] |
this is really hard. i just cant stand sitting in one a place and watching someone get hurt.
on a happier note. i'm totally going to see dmitri this weekend.
we're just hanging out.
:twisted:
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| ok, i believe you, but my tommy gun dont |
| 02.17.04 (11:53 am) [edit] |
i know exactly what i'm going to do
friends annoy me. i cant stand seeing someone hurt for stupid reasons. it makes me angry! i want to tell her so bad to stop hurting him. and i just want to hug him. its because i think i care about him more than i should.
thats not good.
not good at all.
so i had a good valentines day. our winter formal was cancelled. these texans and their snow. the roads were perfectly clear. but whatever. its been rescheduled. josue got me a big rose and we played in the snow. twas excellent.
ive decided to not pay any attention in class today. too much on my mind. too much to do. to say.
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| gah. |
| 02.13.04 (11:25 am) [edit] |
happy day-before-valentines-day . fuckers.
at least i got two valentines today.
one from brandon
one from josue.
:?
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| three more days... |
| 02.11.04 (12:03 pm) [edit] |
this year, i'm actually excited for valentine's day.
formal with josue.
i choose him. even thouth i know i'll miss brandon still. gah.
one month and three days until the AFI, Thursday, and Coheed and Cambria concert! eeee!
i hope the next [girl] you kiss has something terribly contagious on [her] lips.
i like you.
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| please, no |
| 02.09.04 (12:04 pm) [edit] |
my heart with brandon. <3.>
my heart with josue. <3>
my heart now.
it's broken. brandon broke it. and i hurt josue because of it. i should have fucking known when he said "you were one of the best things to ever happen to me".
i'm sorry for everything ive done to you josue. i didn't mean it.
but god. i'm still in love with brandon, and i dont know what to do. maybe i should just wait for all of this to pass.
or ignore it. or complain enough for it to go away.
i just want to be happy.
he's crying. just like i do. for you. :cry:
i miss you.
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| all your fault |
| 02.05.04 (12:30 pm) [edit] |
nothing changed
argh. i'm a pirate.
but seriously.
i miss him.
i stay wrecked and jealous
its okay, i'm sure she really loves you, beautiful.
speak, strike, [i]redress[/i]
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| why cant i? |
| 02.03.04 (11:36 am) [edit] |
GAH
its not supposed to be like this.
i'm supposed to be ignored. its supposed to feel like hell. im supposed to hate you. so i can move on from you.
friday night was interesting. sorry it wasnt fun for you, its not my fault you didnt want to dance with me...i guess josue just got to me first. which was totally worth it anyway. hes amazing.
:roll:
[i]honestly, honestly, honestly
is this the last time that i see you?
...i'll still wait for your call[/i]
why cant you ignore me when i hate you, and catch my eyes when i love you. when i miss you. i miss you. dork.
i shouldnt though. and i know you'll never read this.
saturday. oh god...[i]saturday.[/i] saturday was excellent, if i do say so myself. im perfectly happy when brandon isnt around. i have so much fun talking to josue.
!el es mexicanooo tambien!
hey. there was a time when i was so happy i cried. i know if you're reading this, you could care less. but thats okay anyhow.
i felt something more than friendship in that kiss saturday. but i should probably wait a little while longer.
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